What Have I Been Doing? \ For my Mom

So where have I been? Where have all the posts gone? I’ve been here. I haven’t left my beloved Soulah Gratia. I’m always thinking of things to write, stories to tell. I want to talk about my new Bike (bicycle really). I want to talk about my new goal to cook more. I want to tell you stories about preaching at three in the morning outside bars in College Park. But I haven’t. I don’t know why, really. It’s my nature I guess, born again and new, but there’s still that darn flesh, sinful at that. Perhaps this queer, eccentric post will start a leak that leads to a crack that results in a flood of posting and writing and confessing and pouring.

I’ll start with this.

I went shopping today with my Mom. Not an unusual event. It’s really a time of bonding and in some weird fashion a way in which we can express love to each other with out actually saying ‘I love you.’ We hang out and go through the aisles of a selected supermarket and pick out items for the next month or so. And then she pays for it all, blessing me and I’m sure herself at the same time. A motherly thing probably. Well I was in class tonight going through Revelation and we were discussing the seven seals and when the professor reached Revelation 6:7-8, which is the fourth seal, and how there was a Pale Horse released with the rider’s name being Death and how he had the authority to kill a fourth of the worlds population through sword and famine and pestilence and wild beasts. This made me think of how lucky I was to have a mom who would be willing to go shopping with me and buy me groceries. I don’t need her to, I can very easily go alone and get my own food, but the fact that she wants to spend time and bless me, a poor seminary student with lots of good food…its humbling. I was just reminded of how times will be in those days and how sometimes I do get hungry with no food at my house, and yet the Lord is good. He has blessed me with a loving Mother. I texted her during class that I was thankful and that I loved her.